Therapeutic Love!

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Irvin Yalom put great emphasis on the relationship in a therapy. He claims that relationship is healing the patient. He says "after years, the client will not remember your best comments and interpretations you have made but she will remember the relation between you and her. He adds that the client would gain great benefit from transferring the good relationship with you to the world outside. She will establish better relations with people.

Now, while hanging around flickr, I came across this photo. She looks like my therapist. I suddenly felt how deep I love her. I really love her very much. I love the way she speaks, she looks, she dresses herself. I like her manners so much. She is really beautiful, loving and caring.

I think I should think about this more and I should listen to myself more on that loving.

Love, what a humanity...

Why are there so many work to do?

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I don't understand the way the world operates. I can barely understand why resources ar scarce however I always think that it is unnecessary that poeple force each other to excess work and thus lead to fear and stress.

Maybe those mini macs (or was it mac mini?) someday would be able to put dishes in to the dishwasher. However, after this, I would also tend to think that somebody else, or maybe a robot may come and makes me eat in order that I can have dishes to get washed. See?

And maybe somebody else to go into therapy and talk to my shrink instead of me... or is this simply avoidance what I do now..

Am I an avoidant person?

I would be more happy without society

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Sometimes I really think that if I were to live in an inhabited island, I would be more happy than now and end up therapy, working, socializing and I would even quit social drinking.

I really think that depression and anxiety would no more irritate me if I were to be completely alone.

Just for this reason I sometimes think about going to somewhere in far-east and join in one of those shrines where poeple meditate whole day.

I love internet

Well, I have seen something helpful to me... It didn't took my anxiety and fear away but it's useful to think about, I feel a little bit better.

Here is a portion of what I have just read:

Therefore, fear is an empty feeling. The anxiety it brings is trash. You can move away from fear because it is generated by your thoughts. Usually it is not generated from something that is definitely and exactly going to happen.

It is on the Psychology Blog. And the exact link to the article is here.

Anxiety hit my mind

Well, I was not able to sleep in peace again.

I am nearly sure that I am not so much in trouble. However, sometimes, I got hit by a severe anxiety and fear that I cannot live in the present. I can't work, I can't have a rest.

I don't believe this is depression. I know depression, I've been there. I can define it. This is not depression.

This is just anxiety and fear.

Really don't know exactly how to proceed from here. I am also sure that this will pass. I'll be content again. Unfortunately, I don't know when and how.

Last Session, 25th of February

It was hard. It was very hard. It was so difficult that I don't feel ready yet to tell about it here. I went back to early 80's where my cousin was born and I was usually staying by my grandmother. There have been many complications at that time. I also don't remember talking about them when I was in the therapy for the first time back in 1998-2000.

Wow. I can't call this cool though. I really felt the need for affection. This session was never enough to me. I very much wanted to last it one more hour, time was never enough!

Really don't know what to tell here, now.

I will try to figure out something and continue to write down.

Cheri Huber and Her Books

I recently came across a writer and a zen teacher Cheri Huber. I have read the Fear Book of her. She writes quite good. On first view, I thought that it is a silly self-help book because it also looks like a children exercise book but I started reading and I saw that it is really powerful and it is not empty at all. I suggest you to have look at it.