Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Two new blogs!

Osman, who is a good friend of mine (except from the fact that he eats a whole turkey at thanksgivings and this is why people usually don't invite him at that time of the year!) established two blogs. One of them is his blog in english and the other one (the one with his name in) is in turkish.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Hawaiian Tropic Bikini Contest

Hi, just a quick note to say that I am alive.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Tsunami Warning for Japan and Russia



Very advanced alert system : you can find the same information in various form on every TV channel. Here you can see the heights of the wave and expected time of impact. Looks safe in Tokyo...
From BBC news : A tsunami is expected to hit Russia and northern Japan, the US Pacific Tsunami Warning Center says. Japan's meteorological agency says a tsunami of at least two metres (6.5 feet) high could hit Hokkaido and Honshu islands after 1210 GMT. Warnings are being broadcast on all Japanese TV and radio stations advising people to move to higher ground. It comes after an earthquake of at least 8.1 magnitude hit the Kuril Islands, north of Japan.
USGS Information :

The following is a release by the United States Geological Survey, National Earthquake Information Center: A major earthquake occurred 445 km (275 miles) ENE of Kuril'sk, Kuril Islands and 1665 km (1030 miles) NE of TOKYO, Japan at 5:14 AM MDT, Nov 15, 2006 (10:14 PM local time in Russia). The magnitude and location may be revised when additional data and further analysis results are available. No reports of damage or casualties have been received at this time; however, this earthquake may have caused damage due to its location and size. Earthquakes of this type sometimes cause tsunamis, however the USGS has no information that an actual tsunami has been generated. For information about tsunamis, contact the NOAA Tsunami Warning Centers at http://tsunami.gov.
USGS Shakemap:

Zune Incompatible with Windows Vista

Screenshot from Zune incompatible with Windows Vista [Apple Insider].



Funny extracts from the article:

"And for those wondering, the splash screen of three oriental chicks in distress isn't our contributor's stab at a knee-slapper. It's the official installer backdrop chosen by the Redmond, Wash. folks to appear for each and every customer who installs a Zune."



"I want to squirt you a picture of my kids. You want to squirt me back a video of your vacation. That's [an] experience," [Steve Ballmer] said.




Squirt?



Read Let Steve Ballmer squirt you.

And, here is the official proof that Zune has no Windows Vista support at the moment: http://www.zune.net/en-US/meetzune/software/OS_not_supported.htm

Earthquake in Northern japan


Japan 172 u2, originally uploaded by mattie54.

An earthquake in the islands of northern japan just break the news. It's richter magnitude is 8.1

Tsunami warning issued.

A pool filled with non-newtonian fluid

They filled a pool with a mix of cornstarch and water made on a concrete mixer truck. It becomes a non-newtonian fluid. When stress is applied to the liquid it exhibits properties of a solid.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Zune Incompatible with Windows Vista

Screenshot from Zune incompatible with Windows Vista [Apple Insider].



Funny extracts from the article:

"And for those wondering, the splash screen of three oriental chicks in distress isn't our contributor's stab at a knee-slapper. It's the official installer backdrop chosen by the Redmond, Wash. folks to appear for each and every customer who installs a Zune."



"I want to squirt you a picture of my kids. You want to squirt me back a video of your vacation. That's [an] experience," [Steve Ballmer] said.




Squirt?



Read Let Steve Ballmer squirt you.

And, here is the official proof that Zune has no Windows Vista support at the moment: http://www.zune.net/en-US/meetzune/software/OS_not_supported.htm

Reviewme Madness 2


reviewme, originally uploaded by maozixiansheng.

Today that's the second time I am writing on reviewme (reviewme.com).

Now, they raised their review budget from $25.000 to $100.000.

However, more than being a reasonable review site, reviewme reminds me of happy chains, multi level marketing, and a little of brain cults to some extent.

Southpark version of Britney Spears

Which one is better, do you think?

Britney Spears Fantasy in Tokyo


Britney Spears Fantasy in Tokyo, originally uploaded by sanchome.

A big train station billboard for Britney Spear's perfume in Tokyo.

Gabriel Michael T-Shirt Tees


britney spears, originally uploaded by gabriel_michael.

This is a piece from "Gabriel Michael T-Shirt Tees" Auction that features a very cool, and collectible, Britney Spears The Onyx Hotel Tour 2004 T-Shirt. The auction was last month though. You missed it. :o)

The Thai Britney Spears

This is Tata Young, the Thai version of Britney Spears as they call. On this photo she is performing at Koh Samui Food Festival in Gulf of Thailand.

Reviewme Madness


125923568645_3300, originally uploaded by Jackson West.

There is this new web site review me, where people will get paid for reviewing other websites and products.

I came across of a live example/eye witness here.

Now, that can be a part of the web 3.0 because web 3.0 is going to be more about social improvement than it will be in java, video etc. Therefore web sites like YouTube and myspace fit better than google video and flickr into the scene.

Reviewme may establish a different pool of people that can stress start-ups or by imposing the anxiety on big ones it can also create room for small fishes.

We will see.

Nick Douglas Incidence

The Devil Himself, Nick DouglasThe Devil Himself, Nick Douglas Hosted on Zooomr

Nick Douglas left Valleywag, details here.

Remember Flying



A cool animation from a master thesis. The main idea is to remember that you can fly, as far as I understand.

Nice way to relieve stress.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Ferruginous Hawk Portrait


Ferruginous hawk portrait, originally uploaded by dqtaz.

I think he is serious. Here is the poster's note:

This hawk is part of a raptor free-flight show that is put on twice daily at the Arizona Sonora Desert Museum during the winter months. The birds in the flight show include this species, harris's hawks, and barn owls.

This shot was taken March '06 at the conclusion of a show; the raptor shows resume again in early November and run through mid April and provide a super opportunity to capture flight shots of these species.


I was looking for a video of a hawk on youtube and myspace but I ended up finding this photo. Maybe I should wait for Web 3.0 :)

Is this cute or what?


Karina, originally uploaded by fipi.

It's a pity that this photo is bw.

Peachey


peachey, originally uploaded by nice 1.

When I was a little child, I used to play doctor - patient game with our neighbor's children.

Cats


Cats, originally uploaded by Photographer from Phuket.

Just cats.

Body Paint

I am sorry, I had to edit this post because the original image from Flickr has been deleted. But anyway, I have replaced it with another great body paint image and I hope you like that too.

Colors of Juventus


082, originally uploaded by james_eduardo.

They were white and black, weren't they?

Rianvanu's DeskTop.


rianvanu's DeskTop., originally uploaded by rianvanu.

Came across this while browsing screenshots on Flickr. Nice desktop but I would have liked it more if it wasn't windows.

Wordpress Sidebar Widgets


sidebar-widgets, originally uploaded by shamsulazhar.

I don't exactly remember how many posts I have written today. Most probably I am in my manic episode of a bipolar state.

Anyway, time to time I am thinking of switching to wordpress.com.

I have an account on WordPress.com but I am not using it. I had a look at its environment, of course. There is this sidebar widget thing that makes it really very easy to shape your site up.

People at Blogger provided this functionality in the beta too though.

But it's worth having a look at the sidebar widgets.

Ségolène Royal on TV


Ségolène Royal, originally uploaded by metaphotos.

A photo from Flickr

Segolene Royal Video


Segolene Royal, originally uploaded by e-diote.

Segolene Royal is a member of the socialist party in France since 1980. By the last elections, she was nearly equal in votes against Nicolas Sarkozy.

She claimes that she will create Paris d'Avenir (Paris of the future), and runs for presidancy in 2007 elections.

Zune in a swimming pool


Zune, originally uploaded by Bandit_Bill.

Not hard to tell, there have always been such images around the net when microsoft releases a software, a product, etc.

Probably that will continue with the web 3.0 buzz.

Ségolène Royal Vidéo

By the way, link to the famous video thingy is here.

Second Life


Second Life, originally uploaded by Patmo.

I have done a search for second life on myspace. Here are the search results.

It was really interesting to see that many young people are diving into that second life like crazy.

There are people that publish videos either on myspace or on YouTube. Usually a video of their second life.

Second Life is a game people play over the net, via a desktop application that you can download for free from the second life web site.

I could not run the software of second life because of the low capacity of my windows box. I still use windows on an old computer, just to see how my work looks like on internet explorer 6 or 7. Especially pages I design for web 2.0 via ajax may had problems because java and javascript differ from browser to browser.

Well, anyway, the main machine I work on is a Ubuntu Linux Box, and it is a Centrino with a GeForce card on it with lots of memory. More than enough for a notebook, I might say.

Second Life is going to release a software for Linux Systems too. So I am going to play it on my Linux box. The software is still on the alpha stage, it has some video acceleration problems however it is on the go anyway.

Can't register my blog on YouTube!


YouTube, originally uploaded by jam343.

Well, most probably the reason for this is the beta conversion of blogger. Although there is also "Blogger Beta" option on YouTube's page, I still can't register my blog for posting videos from within YouTube.

I have decided to put video on my blog as well as photos from around flickr. The experiment that I do with images and colors are going really well, I will tell this in detail in the near future too.

Since I am using Ubuntu Linux with Firefox or Flock for browsing, I thought that this might be an error emerginf because of java or javascript. But then I immediately remembered that Browsers on Ubuntu Linux have a little better java or javascript support on web pages.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Buying a Galaxy


050414 M51 19x300s screen size
Originally uploaded by dgoodin.
Nowadays, I wonder if it would be possible to buy a galaxy in a world, err, no, in a universe where rich people buy islands to their loved ones.

Maybe someday, we will have peta-billions of dollars (I am sure I misspelled that) to buy galaxies or different universes.

Big Spray Day


Big Spray Day
Originally uploaded by photo fiddler.
Another nic photoset from Flickr. Reminds me of my mind when I am deep into thinking about stressful events or on the other hand about nice and exciting and maybe fearful occurences.

He he, it's nice to be bipolar, sometimes.

You can see this wonderful photoset here.

Anxiety and Depression In Everyday Life


Screw and apple
Originally uploaded by nelmaf.
Well, I have selected another photo to reflect the everyday tension of human being.

Both modern and the postmodern era behaves human like this. That is they are not identical in nature.

Birds 2



Originally uploaded by Gali Roze.
Another proof that birds provide antennas with power.

Birds



Originally uploaded by Gali Roze.
Is it possible that some of the antenna in this world are having their power from birds?

Friday, November 10, 2006

365 Days


Looney Tunes
Originally uploaded by phlewght.
this is a photo from the 365 days pool. 365 days is a Flickr group. Here is how Chris Maverick puts it out.

The Challenge: Post 365 different self-portraits. One per day for an entire year.

It all started when I (ChrisMaverick) happened upon flickr user, Stephen_Poff. And his 365 day diary project. Basically, every day he makes a new self portrait. trying to find someway to express himself creatively, with a single subject. Himself.

I was inspired to try the challenge myself. A couple other people said they were interested and it was decided that there should perhaps be a photo pool and community where this could be discussed and shared. I'd love to see tons of people trying this. People I know. People I don't know. This could prove to be very intriguing.

The Quick Rules
1. Take one new self portrait every day for a whole year.
2. Tag your photo with "365days"
3. Post that photo to the pool.
4. Look at some other people's photos in the pool and comment.
5. Have fun


This is worth to have a look at. Looks like fun. I am not sure if I can be able to resist this challenge though.

Time for Snowboard?

Time for snowboard is really near right now. For the northern part of the world, of course. It's time for a vacation with fully sun and sea for the southern hemisphere.

Anyway, this very nice photo is from a set I saw in Flickr.

You can see other photos of the set here.

Why did you lie when you said you loved me?

This is the name of a wonderful photo set created by Mark Velasquez. The complete photo set is here.

I think this is a wonderful imagination and reflection of intimate feelings and what we are doing each other in relationships.

Miscommunication in relationships, symbolized in form of art.

The Camel Envy


lujf25
Originally uploaded by ryansa42.
Sometimes, a man would want to become a camel although it's not really possible...

Rocks or Chocolate

I have told you that I am into images and colors nowadays. Now, there is another photo post here. Oh my, this makes me really hungry. By the way, chocolate is a great way to reinforce serotonin in a fast way and reduce stress and anxiety.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Z Photography


Z Photography
Originally uploaded by Sgt. Gooch.
At times, people say that women are not as successfull as men in the area of fine arts. Nonsense! You can see the truth here...

The beauty of black, the excitement of fashion is good accelerators for endorphine and dopamin, I think. And serotonin too.

Hand in pocket


Hand in pocket
Originally uploaded by RoninVision.
Nowadays, I am trying to find different ways of keeping mental health. I plan to work on images, colors and sounds. Therefore, I will do photo-blogging for a while.

I will choose photos among my favorites and blog them from flickr.

I hope you will enjoy that.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Holiday / Vacation


Geronimo
Originally uploaded by modelux.com.
Long time no see. I am on a long vacation that erased my depression. My anxiety persists though...

Don't know exactly what to do for that.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Therapeutic Love!


ebbene sì, c'era anche L U A N A
Originally uploaded by Babeffe.
Irvin Yalom put great emphasis on the relationship in a therapy. He claims that relationship is healing the patient. He says "after years, the client will not remember your best comments and interpretations you have made but she will remember the relation between you and her. He adds that the client would gain great benefit from transferring the good relationship with you to the world outside. She will establish better relations with people.

Now, while hanging around flickr, I came across this photo. She looks like my therapist. I suddenly felt how deep I love her. I really love her very much. I love the way she speaks, she looks, she dresses herself. I like her manners so much. She is really beautiful, loving and caring.

I think I should think about this more and I should listen to myself more on that loving.

Love, what a humanity...

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Why are there so many work to do?

I don't understand the way the world operates. I can barely understand why resources ar scarce however I always think that it is unnecessary that poeple force each other to excess work and thus lead to fear and stress.

Maybe those mini macs (or was it mac mini?) someday would be able to put dishes in to the dishwasher. However, after this, I would also tend to think that somebody else, or maybe a robot may come and makes me eat in order that I can have dishes to get washed. See?

And maybe somebody else to go into therapy and talk to my shrink instead of me... or is this simply avoidance what I do now..

Am I an avoidant person?

I would be more happy without society


Minimart
Originally uploaded by oed.
Sometimes I really think that if I were to live in an inhabited island, I would be more happy than now and end up therapy, working, socializing and I would even quit social drinking.

I really think that depression and anxiety would no more irritate me if I were to be completely alone.

Just for this reason I sometimes think about going to somewhere in far-east and join in one of those shrines where poeple meditate whole day.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

I love internet

Well, I have seen something helpful to me... It didn't took my anxiety and fear away but it's useful to think about, I feel a little bit better.

Here is a portion of what I have just read:

Therefore, fear is an empty feeling. The anxiety it brings is trash. You can move away from fear because it is generated by your thoughts. Usually it is not generated from something that is definitely and exactly going to happen.
It is on the Psychology Blog. And the exact link to the article is here.

Anxiety hit my mind

Well, I was not able to sleep in peace again.

I am nearly sure that I am not so much in trouble. However, sometimes, I got hit by a severe anxiety and fear that I cannot live in the present. I can't work, I can't have a rest.

I don't believe this is depression. I know depression, I've been there. I can define it. This is not depression.

This is just anxiety and fear.

Really don't know exactly how to proceed from here. I am also sure that this will pass. I'll be content again. Unfortunately, I don't know when and how.

Last Session, 25th of February

It was hard. It was very hard. It was so difficult that I don't feel ready yet to tell about it here. I went back to early 80's where my cousin was born and I was usually staying by my grandmother. There have been many complications at that time. I also don't remember talking about them when I was in the therapy for the first time back in 1998-2000.

Wow. I can't call this cool though. I really felt the need for affection. This session was never enough to me. I very much wanted to last it one more hour, time was never enough!

Really don't know what to tell here, now.

I will try to figure out something and continue to write down.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Cheri Huber and Her Books

I recently came across a writer and a zen teacher Cheri Huber. I have read the Fear Book of her. She writes quite good. On first view, I thought that it is a silly self-help book because it also looks like a children exercise book but I started reading and I saw that it is really powerful and it is not empty at all. I suggest you to have look at it.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Still busy with the last session

My mind is still busy with my last therapy session.

I can't call what I feel as anxiety, however I feel both good and bad things all at the same time.

In fact I have a secret about this therapy that I didn't tell on the blog yet. Maybe it's just about this issue, maybe not...

I am happy that I can work now, although not as much as I am able to.

I am restless, I haven't sleeped last night and I am still awake now. No medication, no drugs, no alcohol, I have never been druggy anyway, just to let you now.

What is happening is really good, I can sense that. Maybe I just need a little more patience.

All in all, I can now clearly say that I am not in a depression anymore. And that makes me thank god.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Notes on last session


Are you scared?
Originally uploaded by solea.
Well, one post won't be sufficient to tell everything.

This is now what I feel after last session, like in the photo. I feel like I am in some place like this. However, that doesn't scare me as it did before.

Last session, Feb. 18th


Bella Venezia
Originally uploaded by solea.
My last therapy session was yesterday. It was a session of open communication. Communication was better than before.

I've had a dream, I was in the session and I was talking to a person who is a famous actor during high school.

I thought about this a lot. Probably, he was meant to be the therapist. What a wonderful image in the brain, in the subconsciousness.

I think this dream is about the imitation in therapy. Faking an identity, imitating a relationship... I am not sure.

I'll continue to write on this last session and the dreams I had before and after.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Anxiety 2 Calm: Physical Causes of Anxiety - Brain Structure

Anxiety 2 Calm: Physical Causes of Anxiety - Brain Structure

Well, a nice, short blog post to read.

DVA

DVA
I came across this blog while hanging around blogspot. It's well written and makes it easy to learn about film special effects. A nice blog, you have to see it for yourself.

Trees and the iron man

That's how I felt like during last year. Unable to move, seeing the beauty of the world, allowing nature and birds to communicate to me, but at the end, I was motionless.

Well that was what people call as depression, I think. Accoridng to the psychiatrist, I have both major depression and bipolar depression.

Thanks God I feel better nowadays.

Dreamworks


DSC_1278
Originally uploaded by junku.
I had a dream last night. It was short but very interesting. I was sitting on a couch, looking to a boy who was a couple of years younger than me. He was very angry and I was trying to stop him but there was another man at the same age with me who was trying to stop me!

That was all about the dream. Really weird, really!!

The Upcoming Therapy Session on Saturday


Simpson's Jungle Gym
Originally uploaded by Old Sarge.
Well, I exactly feel like this photo now, about the next session.

I am much more better than I was in the past, and especially in the last couple of days, I feel the change going very fast. In fact that's really tiring.

I should get accustomed to cognitive approach. I feel like I am stuck in analytic approach. Sometimes, I really feel that I couldn't get what she is saying to me. One thing is certain: "I am safe, I exist" was the ever powerful motto I have heard so far.

I'll continue to tell more.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

What I feel in a Therapy Session


040319 bernini touche
Originally uploaded by jw_nyc.
Nowadays, I feel that sessions are part of an art work, like a statue.

The materail of the art is human mind. From dream interpretation to psychoanalysis, from cognitive approaches to what one have in mind while she enters into a therapy session and after she goes out of the room may differ so much emotionally, it is really not difficult to call it art. By the way, this beautiful foto is from an artwork of Bellini.

A little about myself

Well, maybe this is something i have to post on my profile but whatever, post is post.

I have been working in the advertising sector for the past six years. Last year was truely a mess. I fall into a major depression. I tend to believe in depression though, but this not only what i say, also my shrink, who is a psychiatrist, told me that i am in a depression. I was suicidal at that time, back in the spring of 2005. Anyway, he started meds. then months after i have seen him in order to rearrange the medication. i told him that i want to enter into a therapy again but not with him. so, he adviced somebpdy else to me. I was desparate. I was not believing that a new therapy would heal me but i just wanted to give it a try. I called her, she was a proffessional psychologist with a phd and a lot of experience. We arranged a session. and our therapy started. that was in the fall of 2005.

Now I can have titles on my posts

It was simple, easy. go to settings and then go to formatting and then there you go, you can choose to have titles of your posts.. seems like fun.. I am not sure.

This one... is weird.. maybe its because of the template but i am not able to give titles to my posts, anyway, i like this blogger thingy, maybe i should just change the template.. oh my god. life is so hard with this one.

A friend of mine finally convinced me to start a blog. I wonder how it will go...